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| Monday, October 16th, 2006 | | 2:11 pm |
Yeah what ever
been here for a while already wondering why i took creative writing i suck | | Thursday, September 21st, 2006 | | 12:38 am |
Shit
I have shat myself... Im leaving tomorrow. To FUCKING Wales, Why did I choose to go to wales? I mean really, its miles away from anywhere. And I'm a pretty shit cook too. I'm gonna have to cook for myself. Haha. I know it made sense at the time, some sort of sense. A relevance. I could really go as far as saying that I was enlightened when I visited the place. But thats the weed talking. I mean seriously WALES. I have this nagging little thing in my head going: "Natti your stupid." Then I sort of pause and agree with my self for a bit. BUT the "No! Wait!" arguement comes into my head. "the course is a amazing... Yes its great! That's why! That is why! oh yes yesssss" BUT STILL FUCKING WALES bah Current Mood:  blah | | Monday, August 28th, 2006 | | 10:25 am |
Shop-a-holics and what not
Wondering round in circles, In the oh-so-wonderful MK Bromley (formally known as Mark one)I became enlightened... The easiest way and the quickest way to find a shop assistant within a discustingly cheap fashion Store is to look at the faces of people. The person with the most bittered filled and blank expression is most likely to be a shop assistant. I reallised this as I too started pulling this face. The expression is something that you would not fully understand untill you have worked in a store similar to MK. It tries to explain to onlookers: > That you are bored of the mononotious rounds aroound the badly made clothes. > You have heard all the songs that have played in the store about 1000 times in the 4 weeks of working for the company. > These songs you hated before you started working there... Now you want to scream out in frustration each time you hear the Pussy Cat Dolls. > You have realised the 4 pounds 85 pence and hour is not worth it and you are now looking for a new job. > The sale racks are so stuffed with clothes that you cannot tidy it to perfection, even though the manager keeps having a go at you about it. > You have seen about 6 thefts but you cant see the worth of catching them. > You have been working for only 30 minutes but your already bored shitless another 3 hours to go... On a more amusing note I have just got a phone call from work telling me that I have been put on the rota to work to day. So much for my day off. I could have sworn I told them I cannot do over time. | | Sunday, June 18th, 2006 | | 4:39 pm |
Hair
Yes, Really my hair has changed, I had about three weeks of it being ginger:  Ok that might have been a bit of an exageration, but still it felt like AGES! And now its blonde and here is all the images:  Yes I for got to rotate the image before I posted it, I suck with Computers.  This one is suppost to be on its side. Now all i have to do is prey that it doesnt fall out. Oh oh and I got the INVADER ZIM DVD BOX SET I ROCK!!!!! It was My birthday yesterday! I had a great time , Had a gathering at the pub about 30 people must have turned up... Wow I am soooo loved. Theres lots of tales to tell.  BYE!!!! xxxxxx | | Tuesday, June 6th, 2006 | | 9:55 pm |
lalaal
Ok, This entry could focus on the 666 number but frankly I'm sick to death of it so its not. So here I am sitting in a fuming mood at this computer and suddenly realise that the Internet is actually really dull and I need to get a life. But I am stuck in this limbo, I cannot get a real life untill I finish my shitty, obviously going fail, exams as I have done shit all appart from talking about them and finally get a job so I can afford to have a great and interesting life. Which should be by the 21 if my interview went to plan. Any who Myspace sucks, bebo sucks, livejournal sucks and finally allpoetry sucks. And what else can I do on this ruddy thing? Lalalala I'm bored can you tell? | | Monday, May 22nd, 2006 | | 11:19 pm |
meh
Im bored of updating my trivial life im gone. | | Wednesday, May 17th, 2006 | | 7:54 pm |
pictures
  I thought I will post some recent pictures of me here now...seeing as its not that hard. I shall also hopefully be getting a Digital camera for my birthday so I will be able to post lots and lots of my ugly face.... YAY | | Sunday, May 14th, 2006 | | 12:23 am |
| | Saturday, May 13th, 2006 | | 9:05 pm |
Ok, I have decided to post my plan of action
I for the entire term have had a pile, a massive pile of War literature that I was supposed to have read. Which I have known about for two years. Sadly I have no interest in reading about guns and people scrambling about in mud, therefore I have not read a single book. Now exactly one day under a month I have an exam on this subject. I know I wont read them, or even have a hope in hell of doing so. I have decided to pull apart my room to find all my notes and background material for this subject pulling out relevant quotations. I started this rummaging at 4.00pm today its now past 9 and I'm not half way there. The main question is can I still get a B in english without reading any of the texts that where set? I personally think I can. As long as all the quotations that I have are accurate and I have memorised them properly. Will I? I have no Choice. I have all pass papers on the subject and as it is a synoptic paper I can use what ever piece of literature I like as long as it is relevent. I did do this for my AS english, I had not read a book called Wise Children and did manage to get a B in that module but this was after the second time trying and I was given a God send of a question. Well This is a challenge... I cannot afford to fail But then there is the addition of: it would be kinda cool to be able to say I passed this paper without reading a single novel. Current Mood:  anxiousCurrent Music: Placebo, come home | | Monday, May 8th, 2006 | | 10:52 pm |
Well I have never really thought about this before, But right now I'm sitting as still as I possibly can only moving my fingers with my legs crossed.... WHY?Because I need to pee... really really badly but I cannot be bothered. BUT there is this horrible horrible pressure all around my hips and I feel as though if I move I will be able to feel all the slooshing in my bladder. Why am I writting about this horrible, horrible feeing? I am bored, and need to type a little longer before I shut down the computer and go to bed. What I would like to know is that has anyone ever reached the point of despiration where you think that your legs will fall off if you move or when you kidneys start to hurt? Dont worry I dont have the kidney pain yet... Yeah I should stop talking about the need to pee but the feeling is quite fasinating when you actually sit down and think about the feeling of needing to pee...Ok Im off... probably to go for a pee.. Current Mood:  uncomfortableCurrent Music: Offsping...ohh its finished i wonder whats next? | | Sunday, May 7th, 2006 | | 2:04 pm |
Voting and this that and the other
Well... I voted for the first time on Thursday. Something I thought I would never do .. because I had decided that all the parties are too similar and do not care about "the people" and are power hungry lunatics Hehe! thats my intelectual capasity down trodden now with that exageration but I'm sure people know what I mean. Any who after a lot of deliberation, Knowing that I am not gonna vote for either labour or conservative I chose to vote for Green and the Independant because they care more about the enviroment which is much needed in this stinking city and they pretend to care about the local people which is needed in local elections. Ok Now the more interesting stuff I went to the venue last friday *hides* yeah I know I suck but it was fun. The top floor was all indie stuff and it was decked out to look so cool .. I would never admit to the fact that I would go again though!! .. And on the down side the place is full of chavs wannabe emo which is just SICK! I went to the Metro Last Sat which yes paula is right is a compleate meet market... Makes it all the more fun though!! This Friday when to a party, like a rented room which was fun saw all the boys and stuff... Cortney was fucked of her face, wish I had photos .. was a great laugh though!! Mainly because after a while I was fucked to... | | Sunday, March 19th, 2006 | | 11:18 pm |
| | Monday, February 13th, 2006 | | 9:50 pm |
WHY
WHY do I surround my self with retards, that have no sense of anything? GOD for fuck sake people. I say somthing thats really bothering me everyone says go at least....BLAH BLAH BLAH ITS not good its bothering me. So what, Im not a fool I can see the good thing too, but talk to me about the bad thing its BOTHERING ME. Every one seems to be obessed if this GIRL/BOY/MONKEY FACED CRETIN fancies them loves them, if they have a chance with blah blah blah, So what they are not going to last for ever you will brake up eventually what is the chances that some one will find there SOUL MATE at 18??? have fun god damn it. WHAT SHALL I DO NATTI??? Who cares what you do? really I mean come on, you will be oh so in love with some one else, whos better in bed, or better at kissing/ dancing or better looking. HE/ SHE SAID THAT, WHAT DOES THAT MEAN NATTI??? Well it obvious that if you cant see it smaking you in the face then why should I spell it out for you, your never gonna see it DON'T BE SAD NATTI YOU WILL GET OVER IT. I wasn't talking about my new found singledom, or beating my self up over my cretin like drunkard behaviour on friday, I was talking about something so much more important which obviously you have blatently missed. IM ALONE FOR VALENTINES DAY NATTI. Whoo hooo do you know what I dont care, Is there any one out there who can have a more interesting conversation with me? Do you know what I do no care if its about throwing rocks at foxes but something better than this, its driving me mad. Current Mood:  stressedCurrent Music: NOTHING | | Friday, February 3rd, 2006 | | 2:59 pm |
its funny
That I only seem to update this STUPID thing when im PISSED OFF or DEPRESSED or over some other trival matter. Actually I just have realised that I fill myself with trivial things and ignore the important stuff even though its as though the important things are wet fishes smacking their stinky smelly heads in my face. I suppose its because it makes life easier not to think about the gayities of life like: > I actually don't have any money and cannot even afford to top up my phone because my STUPID job whent bankrrup. > Im actually and fool thinking I could even possibly get a B in my English Literature paper and some how be able to write amazing novels that people would like to read. I mean come on Natalie you are a spastic, why do you keep trying to be intellectual and write. > The poetry im spewing out at the moment has no beat making them dull. > My tummy is hurting again. OK I'm RANTING not that its obvious or anything... Any who I am trying to make a point, I suppose I'm like that character in Journey's End um....TROTTER thats the one... HE comes across content with life and does not seem to feel as though there is no need to change anything, who can easily amuse him self. WEll I can amuse myself easily like that qoute. Meh I have forgotten it something along the lines of: "small things amuse small minds" But AGAIN to the point, I should not allow my self to become content with things and I mean aboslutly everything MY health, MY feet, my skin, my grades, my job, weekly activities, Everything becuase when I get content and comfortable it gets slowly pulled out from under my feet one by one in till everything is shit again and I have to ajust to it all again. Oh this is the end of my trival entry. | | Thursday, December 29th, 2005 | | 10:15 pm |
yeah yeah
Well im ultimatly tierd. I actually cannot be bothered to get of my arse and go to bed. So hears another generic diary entry. well heres something interesting, i think its sweet "Angles fly because they take themselves lightly." Current Music: some shit on the radio | | Tuesday, September 27th, 2005 | | 9:57 am |
| | Monday, September 26th, 2005 | | 9:17 pm |
The on going arguement of politically correct
I think being politically correct: Silences peoples fucked up veiws. Makes huge issues forced underground and not expressed.Makes people beat around the bush, well you cant now when describing some one say "hes a obease black gay man, wearing the orange cap" you either can say "he's wearing an orange cap" OR "the horazonally challenged, homosexual man of african decent who is wearing an orange cap" but what if he wasnt wearing an orange cap. then how would you describe him without sounding like a popus idiout huhuh? Im not saying its alright to be homophobic or racist ect but there should an exceptance that people are different and differences will always be used to insult people, because of sudden realisations that people are using the word "spasic" or "retard" say for example, which were perfectly exceptable, where being used as an insult now we now have to say "learning difficulties" which will be eventually will be insulting to use too and we will have to then use something else. Well I think its ridiculous to loose great words just because they are insulting. Any way who would be idiotic to turn to some one who is deformed and has learning difficulties and say "you cretin."? Current Mood:  complacentCurrent Music: nothing watching wife swap | | Thursday, September 1st, 2005 | | 2:08 am |
READING FESTIVAL
As usual the Reading Festival was amazing, I got to see great bands for example: > Iron Maiden (who i personally think rocked the whole festival.) > The pixies (who i hoped would have the best show) > Babyshambles (Pete SHOWED!) Any who listing the bands IS a waste of time. I returned tentless yet again, This irritated me greatly because I had only brought the tent three months ago. Well there is a more specific point to me writing this. I am aiming to write about the bizarre behaviour of people once inside the festival and all the bands have finished and it was dark. This behaviour baffled me greatly mainly because: >people where dancing along the streets of the camp carrying fire sticks and banging on things to make tribal music, OK i am a fan of going back to roots and having less of an effect on the environment but acting like a retarded lot of primitives does not have much of an appeal to me... Why is the behaviour suddenly excepted among middle classed, educated people? (i am coming to this assumption because the prices for reading are high and there allot of people ranging from the age of 14 to 30 which the majority would have got their tickets paid for or are in their first or second job)>Obsessions with FIRE increased greatly, if you where among or one of those cleaver people to have fires you would exp. people coming over with amazed expressions on their face "oooh fire!!" YES fire does amaze me, yes i can stare into if for hours but i do not have the urge to jump in it, put plastic in it, Butane in it, or even food in it why? why is it needed?>Obsessions with TROLLEYS, I heard people running up and down the roads of the camp screaming "TROLLEY" people chanting "TROLLEY.. TROLLEY.. TROLLEY!" Trolleys are not interesting unless they are the animated ones from the Tesco's advert...then, YES they are mind boggling mainly because it is sooooo wrong, but still there is no need to chant about a trolley...pixies maybe as they are scary, but trolleys. PLEASE STOP IT...or next year I will destroy them all. Okay Thats my little rant done, I eventually came to a few conclusions after I noticed that the majority of people who where taking part in these activities where men which where: >Men are strange deformed beings that haven't got over the idea of evolution, and would give their right foot and a half to go back to being cretins struggling to understand why it is impossible to eat chickens raw. >A cocktail of drugs, alcohol and lack of sleep creating a strange feeling of useless energy that is relived with extroverted, simple and plebeian like behaviour. > Finally the frustration of not being able to get laid. Current Mood:  hungryCurrent Music: Sweet Dreams | | Thursday, August 11th, 2005 | | 12:05 am |
| | Wednesday, August 10th, 2005 | | 1:28 pm |
i knew that would happen...WELL...heres my new update
Wondering into work yesterday, In a mood to kill I noticed that every one all ways asks "you alright?" and the question that runs throuogh my head is... do they want the actual answer of how I am? consiquently all the possible answers run through my head: > "no not really im in a foul mood, my periods just started again and I have to stand up for the next five ours." ok to much information > "I'm very tierd and I dont want to be here." this statement makes a whole lot of questions and im not in the mood for a conversation.> so sighing I relpy "oh im fine." walking away rolling my eyes... No further questions so obviously not interested in how I really am. This then leads me to the question: "why ask me in the first place?;" my boss and collegues could have just said "hey natti, nice to see you, shame your late." and I wouldnt have to have bothered trying to work out the correct answer or write this stupid update. Neatherless it pissed me off. Current Mood: bitchy |
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